Hi2U from 7 DPO.

So I've somehow managed to NOT POAS (Pee On A Stick) yet. It's taken almost 6 months to learn that at 7 DPO (or earlier), even if I AM pregnant, will not give me a + HPT.

I'm trying to wait until at least Aug. 4th before I test with FMU (first morning urine). That'll be 11 DPO (which is still kinda-sorta early) and the morning before my infertility testing appointment. But, I might cave in and test as early as 9 DPO... but, just know now, I don't want to. I really want to try and wait this time. It would be nice to get that positive before my appointment.

I refuse to use Countdown to Pregnancy this cycle. I used it last cycle... and had thoroughly convinced myself that I was, in fact, pregnant... when I was not. So NO CTP this cycle. It places too much false hope in something that's already hard to swallow when you figure you're probably not pregnant and still get really upset when you see that - HPT.

So here's to holding out a few more days to test!

The stars have aligned!

Can you even believe what you're seeing? I almost couldn't.

Not only did I get my first peak reading since using my monitor, but I also got it the same day I got a seemingly positive OPK. I thought I'd gotten a positive yesterday while at work. I took an OPK first thing yesterday morning and noticed it was darker than it had been. So I decided to take one to work and take it mid-day to see if it was getting darker... which it was. So I took another one when I got home from work around 9:30pm. And it too was darker than the previous ones. So, I think, since this one in the photo isn't 110% positive, that I probably had the peak of the LH surge overnight. BUT. My monitor still caught my peak reading this morning! It's so good to see that little egg on that screen. I was beginning to think it wasn't possible. And, even more surprising... this was only CD 23 (*according to the monitor it's only CD 22, tho). Ovulation came a week earlier than I was expecting.

Which is fine since we'd BD'd day before yesterday when I started getting my high monitor readings (just in case) even though I didn't expect to see a positive OPK until almost CD 30 like last cycle.

This just goes to show how sporadic my cycle/body is, tho. I've ovulated as early as CD 16... and as late as CD 30... with some in between. I'm sure some people think I'm going to extremes with the testing and monitoring and such (I know the husband does at times)... but, with a cycle that makes as little sense as mine, how could I not do all I can to try and pinpoint ovulation? It's not as simple as tracking it once and going, "Ok, I ovulated on CD 15 my first cycle... so I'll just try and aim for that day from here on out." If I'd taken that route, I would have missed ovulation the following 2 cycles by 2 weeks. With O-Day changing every cycle, I have to stay on top of monitoring... or I'll never know what day is what and when to expect my next cycle, etc...

So I'm going to assume I will ovulate tomorrow or even maybe later today.

I have a doctor's appointment not this coming week but next week for infertility counseling with my OB-GYN. I'm really, really, really hoping I have to cancel that appointment because I'll have already found out that I'm pregnant and no longer need infertility counseling... but it might be too early as I'll only be 10 DPO (give or take a day). So, if I am pregnant with this cycle... and haven't gotten a BFP by then, maybe I can get him to give me a blood test on that day while I'm there.

Anyways. I have a yard that needs mowed. Thanks to all the rain (and a bad backache this past week), it's a bit outta shape.

Stay tuned!

*A bit of an explanation as to why the CD's are off from the monitor to FF. The monitor gives you a 6 hour window within which you test. Mine's at 7am. So I can test as early as 4am and as late as 10am. So on my actual CD 1 this past cycle, Aunt Flo showed up later in the day after my 6 hour window was over. So I had to wait until CD 2 to restart the monitor... which puts the monitor a day shorter than my actual CD of 23. :)

Le sigh.

Hi from CD 8.

You know, I'm probably going to run out of OPK's... and CBEFM test strips before I ovulate sometime around CD 30. (Which, that alone is majorly depressing to think that I have to wait another 22 days just to flippin' ovulate.) But I am so depressed about the whole situation... I don't even feel up to spending even more money on them. I feel like I'm wasting time... effort... and money. I realize this feeling will probably pass.

I probably no more had hit "publish post" on that last blog entry when Aunt Flo decided to show up.

And now I've started giving pregnant women "the glare."

(This glare is also given to women who come into work to buy pregnancy tests because I'm sure they are probably get BFP's.)

I've added yet another TTC method to my regimen... Mucinex 1200mg. I take one tablet at night along with my B6 and prenatal vitamins.

(Seeing as how I work in a pharmacy... it was really hard for me to not type "I take one tablet by mouth at bedtime." I'm a dork.)

Anyways. Whatever. I'm just jaded right now. This, too, shall pass.

PFZ: Pregnancy Fail Zone

I'm spotting.

Seeing as how I'm 13 DPO today, I highly doubt it's implantation bleeding.

And, seeing as how my temp dipped this morning... I figure I'll wake up to more than spotting tomorrow.

*sigh*

On to the next cycle... which really bums me out. And for more reasons than the obvious. Not only do I have to go through another cycle of temping... testing... charting... trying... etc... but my cycles are soooo long. This one was over 40 days. So, where most people get a nice 28-30 day cycle... I have to deal with my almost double-that 40+ day cycles.

*sigh again*

I don't mean to be a downer. I'm just, well, down.

Anyways. Going to bed. I'm exhausted after this long work week.