I'm still here.

And still not pregnant.

I was laying low this last cycle because things were going smoothly. I almost didn't want to go into details because I was afraid I'd somehow jinx myself. But, since getting a new cycle this morning... I figure I'll explain now.

I up'd my dose to 100mg this last cycle after a non-responsive cycle on 50mgs of Clomid. I got a positive OPK almost like clockwork... and then confirmed that + OPK with CD 21 bloodwork... and progesterone levels of 14.7!

Then the waiting game was cruel this time around. I had cramping like I haven't had before... and was thinking it was implantation cramps. But, alas, nope. I've gotten - HPT's the last couple of days and now Aunt Flo this morning. So... yeah.

But I go into cycle #8 feeling a little bit more confident. I know the 100mg works... and that I'll more than likely ovulate again on it. So I feel like we're actually standing a chance.

Now I just take my Clomid days 3-7... and wait.

Round 2.

I just took my last 100 mg dose of Clomid Round #2. Now, in a few days, I begin my OPK adventures and hope to see 2 dark lines before CD 21's blood work. Here's to positive thinking!!

Hi from CD 4.

Good morning.

Sitting here on the couch after being on the front porch all morning... indulging in a little cafe mocha... and reading. It's perfect weather outside--hoodie weather! It was really relaxing to sit out there and listen to the birds chirp in the trees while swinging. The only thing missing is a hammock. :) But, if I had one of those, I'd probably quit my job.

Last night was the first night of Clomid round #2. Instead of the 50 mg I took with the first round, I took 100 mg last night. I also took it with a Bupap... which really seemed to help with the headaches I had with the first round. I'm really, really, REALLY hoping I don't suffer from the moody-depression-hopelessness I had last month with Clomid. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that the rumor of "less side effects with the 100 mg" is true.

I'm not using my monitor this month. I decided it wasn't worth the high cost of the sticks. Sure, it's nice to see that peak reading... but, you know, seeing as how we're doing the OPK's and CD 21 blood work to confirm ovulation, I just can't see tossing out another $50 on test sticks. So this month, we're just using OPK's and temping to try and pin-point ovulation.

So now until CD 21, I just stick with the Clomid schedule... and keep hopeful.

CD 21 :(

I got crosshairs this morning on my chart. According to it... I ovulated a couple of days ago.

I also had my blood drawn this morning for my serum progesterone test.

According to it... I didn't.

My level came back at 0.7.

So, broken-hearted, I went to my message boards to cry on the shoulder of fellow TTC'ers.

The general question that came up was, "Why did they test your levels so soon after ovulation?" Seems that most/all other girls have their levels checked around 7DPO or later. Me, just being 1-3 DPO today, my levels wouldn't be high at all... and would look like I hadn't O'd at all. They were all like, "Ask to re-test in a few days." And, "Don't rule out ovulation yet!"

So, my hope was basically shattered until they were all telling me that it's still very possible that I did actually ovulate. Esp. considering I had a temp. shift... and a positive OPK.

So, here's to BABY DUST and crossed fingers (and toes!) that I am pregnant this cycle.

Please let me be pregnant this cycle. I don't think I can handle 100mg of Clomid next cycle.