CD 2... finally.

I never thought I'd be so glad to see Aunt Flo arrive as I was yesterday.

I had really given up any hope that "things" would ever return to normal. (Yeah, that's being overly dramatic. I mean, I KNEW they'd EVENTUALLY go back to normal... whatever that is.) But yesterday proved me wrong. She came. And she was/is large and in-charge.

And kicking my butt.

I hurt in places I didn't even know I had.

But, that's okay. This is necessary to cleanse my body and get it prepared for full-on baby making this month.

This month I'm using my monitor. I haven't decided if I'm doing the OPK's this month or not. I'm leaning towards no... and just the monitor and perhaps temping. We'll see. But no Clomid. No bloodwork out the ying-yang. No 10-12-14-16-18 day schedule. Just going with the flow.

Let's rock.

Hi.

Long time no see.

The latter half of 2009 was a wild ride. Lots of things happened... none of which I really want to elaborate on. Let's just say I'm really, really glad to have it all behind me.

I'm now working full-time as a pharmacy technician in a local pharmacy here. I love my job. It's long hours... and hard days... but I wouldn't change it. I feel important for once... and that I have a career and not just a job. I feel like what I do is worthwhile. And I like having money to spend. :)

I'm done with school, of course. Talk about a big relief. I'm so glad that's all over with.

Let's see. What else...

As of late, I'm finding my spirituality again. For so long I'd forgotten it... and pushed it on the back burner for when I "had time" for it. I realize now I need that part of my life more than anything. It's really helping me stay grounded and feel good.

I'm off all my medications with the exception of my stomach medication. I need it for as long as I am able to take it. I'm now managing my bipolar II disorder with natural vitamins like fish oil, B-Complex and vitamin C. It's made a big difference, honestly. I'm feeling more like myself again... minus the disorder symptoms, of course. But I feel more in touch with the person that I was creatively speaking. I'm finding myself being drawn to my old hobbies again, too. I think I've found the way I should have been taking care of myself all along.

As far as the TTC goes... after being put on hold for a few months, I think we're getting the green light to go. SO. Stay tuned for those adventures. :)

So yeah. Happy New Year!